How far can presence go? Presence can only go so far. I am present in this moment or am i being present, a gray area in which sometimes I really take a tumble.
There are hours reduced to minutes reduced to seconds reduced to milliseconds, to microseconds, nanoseconds and so on down the line these even exist in the past and future that are in effect present, a brief snippet or video that plays based on our perception of what happened at that moment.
My experience is only really based on thoughts that I call present thoughts that also create the base of this time a measure present thoughts also sometimes include thoughts o the past or future, usually concerns, the haves have not’s should’s and shouldn’t and regrets.
A thought is really the only thing that surpasses time it has an existential of now or time there really is no past or future. Whether that thought exists for futures to come or events from the past. What thoughts we have now seemed to transcend time. So I think that wherever my attention is that is described as presence this is now of the mind. By drawing my attention to perhaps my breath, a sound a smell in meditation this takes me away from the current focus of my thoughts, perhaps my struggles. Am I approaching things with incorrect thought or intentions?
“It is not the destination that is important but the journey, this is life”
Reality is my current thought or my idea about that current thought the judgment of thought the judgment of me or circumstances based on a point of view that is inward focused or myself focus the feelings that accompany these thoughts is usually what I am caught up in instead of what is really happening in the moment and having another or different perspective of others. The thought is a function of belief- belief is derived from my external influences and internal dialogue that I have anchored in my realm of self.
My destination has always been serenity, peace, happiness those things in life that sometimes seem to be mostly absent. If I only had had those things now is it possible that I am the destination of the future in time, or I am the destination without seeking those things in that they already exist in the now. If I look at my feelings and thoughts when I am in these spaces as nothing more than a 7th sense collecting information without dialogue of my judgment I can remove myself and claiming this is me. When I say it’s my leg or my feelings I claim them as mine as ownership. Is this true? No, they are feelings this is a leg this is a body. They are not “My thoughts or feelings” thoughts and feeling happen or they are happening sometimes for no reason one just seems to follow the other and my consciousness has a say in that, but to notice them first without judgment is turning the sail into the wind reducing the drag deflating the energy then we can go into the beliefs that limit us.
Paying attention to the journey as journey’s sometimes will be difficult, and some disappointments and trials spotted with occasional successes.Accomplishments even lose their luster until the next endeavor even though he difficulties yield such great gifts and wonderful grow if you as to see them.
Taking this all back to the presence of this moment none of this really matters. This is my meditation.
